Just not feeling it...

Usually, once or twice a week, I "feel" a blog coming on...sounds funny, but it really does happen.  The feeling can be triggered by a thought, a song, someone's words or simple action. 

The last two weeks have been very hectic, emotional, stressful and as a result, I believe I have blogger's block.  Honestly, I think my thoughts are backlogged. 

You see, I hit the road running with the first three steps in my Al-Anon recovery and I knew the next step, the 4th one, was going to be a son-of-a-motherless-goat!  And like most things I don't want to do, I pushed it aside in hopes it would go away.  That has never worked in the past, so why I continue to do it is so damn frustrating.  I believe that will be something I work out in my 4th step. 

Though I have a few blogs on draft, I haven't had the inclination to finish them.  One is titled Ten Things I Hate About You and the other might be titled Turbo Lover.  Still playing with that one...
And then there is one I'd like to write about married men but that one is all sorts of crazy and guaranteed to draw unnecessary conclusions and drama.  That one may never be published...

So, I'm letting all my followers know, all five of you, oh wait, I follow myself too, so all four of you, that I'm taking a little break.  Maybe a week or two.  The next one will most definitely be the dreaded Step 4, Made a searching and fearless moral inventory of ourselves.  Yuck!  Don't want to do it...

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